and tell you lies to make me stronger
i will pretend in time again
that you never hurt what was the better part of all of me
(together, we will pain)
you never focused on anything other than you (and i will witness that again)
long awaited touching will never come
because it is i, that made the decision (sometimes i fell back on my decision)
uncontrolled by what i knew of emotion
you took me into your arms and it felt good again
you told me that we couldnt be what could be
and i told you that i didn't mind (i cared, too much)
it was nothing, and we were nothing
and the mind wandered into ideas of eternal satisfaction and glow
euphoric endeavours with you until our days would become light (we would grow old,)
in body/mind/soul i would take you full-heartedly
perpetually, no matter fault nor aberration
i loved, and love is hard to come by (at least for me)
